Results of Culture & Society - Homeisode 54

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What's up, people? Welcome to another episode

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of Not Just Music Podcast. I'm your boy, Quincy

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Murdock. Thanks, everybody, for tuning in once

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again. So listen to what Quincy has to say. This

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one's really going to be like a personal one.

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And you can just call this cue addressing situations

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and things. And I think a lot of times, you know,

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with this podcast, we like to keep it in the

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realms of black history, education. And what

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I'm about to speak on is education and we can

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help somebody out there. It can help people,

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my life, my experiences. And I think we have

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to get out of the mold of not wanting to. Step

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out of the box a little bit not wanting to try

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new things not wanting to Express different ways

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holding back I say holding yourself back because

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of the fear of whatever that fear is I went to

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Nigeria November 2022 and Before that Being here

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in America, right my childhood my upbringing

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I didn't really have the best upbringing, as

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I stated in previous podcasts. My father wasn't

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there. My mom was a single working parent. You

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know what I'm saying? I had no siblings. I spent

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a lot of time on my own by myself, which drew

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abandonment issues, you know, and trauma. I had

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wonderful grandparents that raised me and did

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the best they could. And I hear people say all

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the time, well, you had grandparents, you had

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a grandfather, you had a grandma. But the downside

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of that, of my situation was my grandfather was

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respectfully a mean man. He was just mean. You

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know, there's no way around it. So that father

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figure that you would say I had, I really didn't

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have in a sense because you couldn't talk to

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him. I couldn't talk to him. and he was very

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disrespectful at times towards my grandmother

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and his kids, my mother, the grandkids, all that.

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He was just, and it's probably some trauma that

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he went through that he dealt with. And I'm not

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making no excuses, but it's a repeated cycle,

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if you get what I'm saying. So I remember like

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birthdays. My mom was always at work. She had

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to work. You know I'm saying she had to provide

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What not so my mom missed out on a lot of birthdays.

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My mom missed out on Some sporting events, you

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know because she had to work She had to get the

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bills paid and most of the time the birthday

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parties were paid by her That other people were

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hosted for me. I had got into this this routine

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to where I thought Certain things were normal

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You know here in America and I think as black

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individuals we're used to Accepting The lowest

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amount are where we're used to we're okay with

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Settling it for less if you get what I'm saying

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If it's not to the part that it should be or

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if it's something that we know deep down It could

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be better. You know, we want to do better The

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world will make us feel like we're stupid for

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wanting better. We're stupid for thinking bigger.

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Like, a lot of dreams. I remember when I told

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people, like, I'ma go to Nigeria. I'ma go to

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Africa. People thought I was crazy. Coming from

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here, Statesville, North Carolina, in America.

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People thought I was crazy. And instead of getting

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encouragement, they would down you. You know

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what I'm saying? Like, that's impossible. A lot

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of people would say, and then I said I was going

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to perform. I was going to shoot a video. People

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thought I was crazy. And I ended up doing that.

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Right. And it's like. When you do that. Even

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when you overcome and you succeed and you do

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what a lot of people says you couldn't do. People

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have a tendency of being like, OK, well, do it

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again. And this is my question. This is my thing.

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I feel like it's never going to be enough for

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people. It has to be enough for you. If it's

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enough for you, if it's satisfying to you, if

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it satisfies you as a man, as a woman, that's

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all that matters. And I've came to the conclusion

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in my life where I'm not living for people acceptance.

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I live for my own acceptance. have come to the

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realization that everybody's not gonna be happy

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for me. Everybody's not gonna see it as a big

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deal that I see big deals as. Like, people are

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not gonna feel how I feel. So, one thing that

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I do now is I base my happiness based on how

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I feel about myself and about the situation.

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When I went to Nigeria, man, it's like the red

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carpet was laid out for me. Like, y 'all can

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go and... Look on my page, because the anniversary

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is coming up. It was November of 2022. I went

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for my birthday. I got booked for a show. Courteous

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of Freaky Legos, LJ Entertainment. I wanted to

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shout them out because they really looked out

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for me. But I got booked for a show there. And

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man, it was wonderful, man. I had a show. The

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night before my birthday and they let it lapse

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into 12 o 'clock on my birthday and the surprise

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they surprised me with a birthday cake and I

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performed and It was amazing man. You know, I

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always give him my all everybody that knows me

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as an artist They know I give my all you know

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saying so the love that I got from that experience

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and then to shoot a music video Turn me on music

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video in Nigeria was a blessing. When I came

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back from Nigeria, it's like my mindset was different.

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You know, like how I view things were different.

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How I view people were different. How I view

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situations were different. And I feel like it

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was a wake -up call. It seems like a lot of things

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were unraveling. Like a lot of people were showing

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their true colors now. I could see clearly. You

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know like I know What the top feels like I know

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what love feels like I know what success feels

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like You know I'm saying so it's like when you

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get that huh? Anything that's lower below that

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you know you kick out you kick out of your life

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After experiencing what I experienced, the love

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and the success in Nigeria, just for a week,

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it changed my mind. And tonight, just settling

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for things, people, I deserve the best. And I

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can't speak for anybody else. I'm just speaking

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for Koisei Murdaugh, but I deserve the best.

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That's how I always viewed it now. And a lot

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of people think that I've been stuck up You know,

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I remember times where I was the one showing

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love to artists and States view our surrounding

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areas my city. I was showing love I remember

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I was the artist there if I didn't have anything

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positive to say I didn't say anything at all

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and it seemed like When I was humble when I was

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giving credit to other people People took the

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opportunity to trash me bash me talk bad about

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me Leave me out of the conversations of The greats

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are doing positive things or doing good things

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leaving me out of the conversation Purposely,

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you know I'm saying doing a little slick slide

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jabs at me, you know, I'm saying and Did no one

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rocks and hide hands and then once I responded

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I'm the bad guy, you know And I feel like I've

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always had their label like as as a human. I've

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always been labeled a bad guy And a lot of people

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go off stories. Some people go off stories they've

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heard of me, rumors they've heard of me, and

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don't personally know me. You know, this is the

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reason why I created a movie, Quincy Murdaugh,

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the movie, to tell my story, to tell my truth.

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I'm still living. I can tell my truth. And that

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movie was 100 % true. You know what I'm saying?

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And people will still... be like oh he's lying

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or Well, we believe what this person says about

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your story and That like what since is that me?

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How will somebody know my story than more than

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me? and more than God So it's like I've always

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tried to be the humble to respect for one, but

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it comes a point where it's like Okay, respect

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has to be given for it to be, you know what I'm

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saying, given back. So you have to respect me,

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I respect you. You know, that's just what it

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is. I've never had any problems with anybody

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unless they had problems with me. I never took

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it to a point of violence or negativity unless

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an individual brung that upon me. I never was

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The creator of situations. I never started situations

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I always had the mindset that I'm gonna finish

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it though. If you if you come at me, you know

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I'm saying so You can't hit me first and then

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You know dictate how hard I hit you after you

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hit me It's been a lot. That's what's been a

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lot of like I might just strike harder But you

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struck me first. That's the purpose. You know

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I'm saying so it's like I had an awakening, man.

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And I've been on a spiritual journey, man. And

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I really just been following my instinct, following

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my gut, following my heart. I know a lot of people

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been like, man, Q been missing here, there, like,

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you know, the church, this and that. And it's

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I have love for everybody. That has love for

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me. And never take my absence as disrespect.

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Never take my absence as I'm mad at you. I'm

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mad at y 'all whoever's watching this that might

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feel like Quincy Murdaugh has a problem with

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them Listen It's not you Sometimes it's me Sometimes

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I need that break. Sometimes I'm going through

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a spiritual journey. Sometimes I might be going

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through something that requires me to get take

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take my life away from the world you know I'm

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saying to separate from the world and some things

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people can't fix some things require me to fix

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on my own some things require for me to sit down

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and really go through what I'm going through

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and listen to God get a relationship closer relationship

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with God and heal Instead of just going out here

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just moving moving moving moving. That's what

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I think a lot of you know Society does now like

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we sweep it under the rug You know I'm saying

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and I feel like it comes a time in life where

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you have to really sit in that room by yourself

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and you have to really look at the person in

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the mirror and Answer those questions. Am I satisfied

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with who I'm looking at in the mirror? Have I

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done everything that I could? Have I lived up

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to my expectations that God wants me to be? And

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sometimes it's a personal battle. It's a personal

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journey. But this advice can go out to somebody

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like me. Sometimes you have to separate from

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the world. Social media. people, places, things,

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you know, your cell phone, sometimes you don't

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social, whatever, like you have to get back on

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track to who you are. And I've been on a spiritual

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journey. That's the best way I can put it. It's

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never been no disrespect towards people that

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showed nothing but love for me. This is just

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my characteristic. This is just my character

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when I'm going through something or I'm going

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through a spiritual awakening or whatever you

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want to call it. I separate myself sometimes,

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you know, and I actually create a life during

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that time. I channel it into other avenues, you

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know, whatever that may be music, podcasts, movies,

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whatever. I can express myself, you know, in

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school sports. I was I was an excellent wrestler.

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I'm saying that was one of my aggressions. So

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find something that you can take your frustrations

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out and you can use to channel your emotions,

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you know and express them other than doing it

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the wrong way going out here breaking the law

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getting locked up or getting killed. So this

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is just I say part one because I don't know I

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might get on here tomorrow or the next day and

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say something else. But this is just the beginning

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of me talking about my journey. What's been going

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on with me, you know, because as I'm encouraging

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y 'all, remember, I'm going through life. I'm

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going through battles myself. And sometimes before

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you judge, I always remember that person might

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be going through something just like you. He

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bleeds just like me. You know what I'm saying?

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He cries. He has emotions just like me. You know,

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we got to start having more sympathy and understanding

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because you want people to understand us Right.

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So we had to start trying to understand everybody

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else So yes, it's another episode and not just

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music podcast your boy Quincy Murdoch. I hope

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you took some knowledge got some knowledge from

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this took some notes and Yeah, y 'all stay blessed